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to bear through Heaven a tale of woe, some dolorous message knit below the wild pulsation of her wings; Like her I go; I cannot stay; I leave this mortal ark behind, a weight of nerves without a mind, and leave the cliffs, and haste away o'er ocean-mirrors rounded large, and reach the glow of southern skies, and see the sails at distance rise, and linger weeping on the marge, and saying; "Comes he thus, my friend? Is this the end of all my care?" And circle moaning in the air: "Is this the end? Is this the end?" And forward dart again, and play about the prow, and back return to where the body sits, and learn that I have been an hour away. a late-lost form that sleep reveals, and moves his doubtful arms, and feels her place is empty, fall like these; Which weep a loss forever new, a void where heart on heart reposed; and, where warm hands have pressed and closed, silence, till I be silent too; Which weep the comrade of my choice, an awful thought, a life removed, the human-hearted man I loved, a Spirit, not a breathing voice. Come, Time, and teach me, many years, I do not suffer in a dream; for now so strange do these things seem, mine eyes have leisure for their tears, my fancies time to rise on wing, and glance about the approaching sails, as though they brought by merchants' bales, and not the burthen that they bring. that thou hadst touched the land today, and I went down unto the quay; and found thee lying in the port; And standing, muffled round with woe, should see thy passengers in rank come stepping lightly down the plank and beckoning unto those they they know; And if along with these should come then man I held as half divine, should strike a sudden hand in mine, and ask a thousand things of home; And I should tell him all my pain, and how my life had drooped of late, and he should sorrow o'er my state and marvel what possessed my brain; And I perceived no touch of change, no hint of death in all his frame, but found him all in all the same, I should not feel it to be strange. and roar from yonder dropping day; the last red leaf is whirled away, the rooks are blown about the skies; the forest cracked, thewaters curled, the cattle huddled on the lea; and wildly dashed on tower and tree the sunbeam strikes along the world; And but for fancies, which aver that all thy motions gently pass atwart a plane of molten glass, I scarce could brook the strain and stir that makes the barren branches loud; and but for fear it is not so, the wild unrest that lives in woe would dote and pore on yonder cloud that rises upward always higher, and onward drags a labouring breast, and topples round the dreary west, a looming bastion fringed with fire. (Alfred, Lord Tennyson) |